Kristen Stewart has been acting since the age of nine and was a teen herself when she starred in the Twilight films. She’s made her feature directing and writing debut with The Chronology of Water, an adaptation of Lidia Yuknavitch’s 2011 memoir. In April, Stewart tied the knot with her longtime girlfriend, screenwriter Dylan Meyer. This interview was conducted on November 2.
What we create needs to come from the things that we want.
We need to design our own desire instead of being told how the fuck to feel by movies that are never changing and always the same.
I have figuratively broken teeth learning that shoving into fear instead of backing away from it is key. I try to let this seep into how I spend literally all my time.
I found that battle cry within myself, knowing that it is an echo of centuries and centuries of women that have needed to pick each other up.
A real core-base activation piece for me was reading The Chronology of Water when I was a lot younger, in a time where I was in service of other people’s stories as an actor. Even though I’ve been lucky enough to make work that feels like it has a sense of freedom, I’ve worked in an industry for a long time that definitely does not uplift.
There are reasons why people have a hard time articulating certain things. There’s no room for it, or it’s not encouraged, or it’s steeped in shame or embarrassment. It’s tough to be anyone trying to find their own voice.
Those screaming voices that you keep blocked up in your body feel a lot better when they come out.
I’m really ruminating on system breakage lately. My own systems. All that fun stuff that comes with seeing reality breaking all around us. You realize it’s up for grabs.
“No passion is darkness.” That’s what Pablo Larraín said. He directed me in Spencer and helped me blast through some fear on the set of Chronology. He helped me make a disruptive but ultimately lifesaving decision.
“Making a movie is an act of love” is another thing he told me.
All memories are so physical. It’s kind of cool, and it’s a bit daunting to know that the things that happen to you will never really be processed out of your body. They get to live in you.
I can roll with the punches but also not be somebody who casually lets people that I love and care about off the hook.
What have I learned from married life? Power in numbers.
It’s so nice to have a family. It’s so nice to not be an unmoored individual. Dylan came into my life and I immediately was like, “It’s so important to handpick and curate the people that surround you.” Dylan just does not suffer fools. I may not always seem like it, but I really am kind of a “nice guy.”
It’s just bolstering to be with someone that reminds you that your life is in your hands.
What makes someone attractive? Hunger. And I mean that in every way. When someone wants a lot. Openly. It also means being nice, because you just get more with real honey.
Mean people suck. I can smell it. So gross.
A big thing that makes me happy is reading out loud with my wife and pets. East of Eden, Wuthering Heights, Jane Eyre, The Heart Is a Lonely Hunter. To share them outside of yourself is salve.
A small thing that makes me happy is waking up before anyone and having an hour or two. I am so with people all the time. I’m an Aries, so it’s rare that I’m not in a group. I like to steal time and remind myself to be alone.
I care about getting better at playing golf. But that is a lifelong and kind of yo-yo experience. Sometimes I’m absolutely incredible, and other times it’s like I’ve never hit a ball in my life.
Party tricks: I can juggle. I can blow a really good smoke ring. I can roll a really mean joint—fast.
There is a sort of oppressive and stifling experience that women have at the energetic hands of a lot of different men. But it is absolutely not everyone.
I have one biological brother, but I’ve grown up with just a slew of lovely and sweet but bamboozling young men. I will always be able to laugh at the kind of enraging and infuriating unawareness that boys are all about.
I feel my absolute best around guys that I could say anything to. I want to be homies; I want to be friends. It’s really nice when you’re around someone that you can completely relax with, because you know that you can’t hurt them with your differences.
I just want everyone to be as close as they possibly can.
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