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Jenny Marrs<\/a> shared a heartfelt post on social media on Wednesday (October 1), opening up about dealing with grief<\/a> and the \u201cdeep heartache\u201d she has been feeling in recent weeks.<\/p>\n The HGTV star recently lost her mother-in-law,<\/a> Donna, the mother of her husband and Fixer to Fabulous<\/em><\/a> co-star, Dave Marrs<\/a>. Last month, both Jenny and Dave posted tributes, with Jenny writing on Instagram, \u201c[Donna] taught me how to be the kind of mother-in-law and the kind of grandmother who I can\u2019t even begin to imagine this earth without.\u201d<\/p>\n On Wednesday, Jenny returned to Instagram to reveal she hasn\u2019t \u201cslept well the last two weeks,\u201d admitting, \u201cGrief seeps in at night most acutely, once I slow down from the day\u2019s activity.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cEach day is a disorienting experience \u2013 life continues to move forward as I am simply trying to reconcile my deep heartache with the sunshine out the window and the pressing demands on my time,\u201d she added.<\/p>\n However, she has been finding solace in words from her own book, Trust God, Love People,<\/em> which is scheduled for release on October 7.<\/p>\n \u201cThis morning, I was sorting through emails for next week\u2019s book launch and happened across a handful of audio files from the audio book I recorded,\u201d Jenny shared. \u201cI opened this one from the \u201cLessons from the Farm\u201d chapter and I felt my own words speak life to my heart\u2026 Maybe someone else needed them today too.\u201d<\/p>\n In the accompanying audio clip, Jenny says, \u201cFarm life can be both beautiful and brutal. That day was certainly one of the hardest days. While we\u2019ve witnessed hundreds of joy-filled miracles here on this little patch of land, we\u2019ve also experienced deep grief.\u201d<\/p>\n It\u2019s unclear from the clip which death Jenny is speaking about specifically, but the designer has been open in recent months about several devastating losses. Earlier this year, she revealed the passing of her beloved neighbor Bob, and then, four months later, they lost Bob\u2019s wife, Jill.<\/a><\/p>\n