NEW YORK (AP) \u2014 Harvey Weinstein<\/a> ‘s accuser struggled on the witness stand at his rape retrial<\/a> Thursday after being confronted with a previously undisclosed, soul-searching note she wrote to herself two days after the alleged assault in 2013. Court ended early for the day.<\/p>\n Jessica Mann straightforwardly answered questions about the missive, in which she described becoming \u201cemotionally attached\u201d to someone and wanting a loving partnership. Weinstein\u2019s defense pointed out that she wrote nothing about having allegedly been raped.<\/p>\n Court wrapped up for the day, about 45 minutes earlier than planned. Mann is due back Friday for a fifth day.<\/p>\n Thursday’s early end came after questions turned to the alleged assault in a Manhattan hotel room, and Mann said she was feeling \u201cspacey\u201d from the difficulty of testifying. The court took a break, but soon after Mann returned, she said she felt \u201cdissociated\u201d and sensed she wasn\u2019t hearing properly because of stress. The 40-year-old later told the judge she hadn\u2019t gotten much sleep.<\/p>\n It’s the third time Mann has testified against Weinstein, 73. He was initially convicted in 2020<\/a>, but an appeals court overturned that verdict<\/a> for reasons unrelated to her testimony. The jury at his first retrial, last year, didn’t decide<\/a> the rape charge.<\/p>\n Mann, a hairstylist and actor, has acknowledged<\/a> the two had a consensual, on-again-off-again sexual relationship. She alleges it degenerated into rape in New York in March 2013 and again some months later in Beverly Hills, California. Weinstein has never been charged with any crime related to the California allegation.<\/p>\n \u201cHe just treated me like he owned me,\u201d Mann told jurors<\/a> this week.<\/p>\n Weinstein\u2019s lawyers maintain that everything that happened between the two was consensual and part of a supportive, caring relationship. They say Mann benefited from associating with an Oscar-winning producer, only later accusing him after allegations about him powered the #MeToo movement<\/a> against sexual misconduct. He denies sexually assaulting anyone<\/a>.<\/p>\n The sketchy, journal-like note that came up in court Thursday was written on March 20, 2013. Mann had just returned to her Los Angeles home from New York, where she says Weinstein forced himself on her. She had gone on to see him socially, at one point marking his March 19 birthday by having tea with him and his daughter.<\/p>\n In the missive, Mann mused about budding feelings of attachment in a nonexclusive relationship with a man she didn’t name. She reflected on how she wanted a mutual and loving relationship and said her feelings toward the unnamed man were creating inner conflict for her. She talked about questioning the \u201cwoulds and would nots\u201d she had set for herself.<\/p>\n After describing fears of rejection, and being a \u201c’bad’ person,\u201d she appealed for God’s guidance.<\/p>\n \u201cI know that I was struggling with some of the decisions I was making that were different than what I was raised with,\u201d Mann explained in court, adding that there was \u201ca lot going on at this time in my life.”<\/p>\n Emphasizing a passage about seeking love and freedom, she testified that \u201cI was feeling very controlled.\u201d<\/p>\n Through questions, Weinstein attorney Teny Geragos<\/a> suggested that the note reflected Mann’s feelings about being involved with the then-married Weinstein.<\/p>\n