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Former celebrity.land anchor Brooke Baldwin shared her experience with sexual assault for the first time on May 3<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/li>\n
In a post on Substack, she recalled her drink being spiked during a night out in L.A. during her spring break in college when she was 21 and waking up “half-dressed on cold bathroom tile” with a “strange older man still passed out beside me”<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/li>\n
Baldwin worked at celebrity.land from 2008 until 2021<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n
Former celebrity.land anchor Brooke Baldwin<\/a> is sharing her experience with sexual assault for the first time.<\/p>\n In a Sunday, May 3, post on her Substack<\/a>, Baldwin, who worked at celebrity.land from 2008 to 2021<\/a>, wrote that she felt “compelled” to share her story for the first time because “I honestly don\u2019t know how not to.”<\/p>\n She was 21 at the time of the incident, and she wrote in the post that she believes “my drink was spiked” during an outing in Los Angeles during spring break in her senior year of college.<\/p>\n “I woke up on the cold, hard bathroom tile floor of my Los Angeles hotel room with a man I did not know,” she wrote. “For years, I did not have language for what I believed may have been done to me.”<\/p>\n Baldwin recalled going to the Polo Lounge at the Beverly Hills Hotel with her friend, that “most people there were easily double \u2014 if not triple \u2014 our age,” and her friend left soon after, but she “wasn’t ready to go.”<\/p>\n “I remember two much-older men appearing beside me. Offering me a drink. And the rest comes only in flashes: A black SUV. Chateau Marmont. Waking up half-dressed on cold bathroom tile,” she wrote. “I remember waking up on that bathroom floor and doing a frantic check of my body. And I remember relief \u2014 relief<\/em> \u2014 believing penetration hadn\u2019t happened. Grateful, even, that this strange older man, still passed out beside me, seemed too incapacitated for anything more to have happened.”<\/p>\n The word rape “never once entered my mind,” Baldwin wrote, “because shame got there first.” She recalled waking the man up and asking him to leave her hotel room, and “shock was the only word” for how she felt as she told her friend what had happened.<\/p>\n There was “no concern” from her friend, only “full-throttle shame,” and she remembered feeling “terrified,” especially because her friend “had already called her parents and told them ‘what I\u2019d done.’ I feared they\u2019d tell mine. I let her lash me \u2014 and then I turned the whip on myself. (Maybe this explains why I can still be so hard on myself.)”<\/p>\n