Amy Winehouse’s ex-husband, Blake Fielder-Civil, revisited their tumultuous romance — and her death — in a rare interview Tuesday.
He addressed those who “have an idea that Amy’s passing is [his] responsibility” on the latest “We Need to Talk” episode.
“I never shirk from any responsibility. If I’ve done something, I’ll put my hand up to it,” he added, acknowledging that he did have “a part to play” with Winehouse dying of alcohol intoxication at 27 in 2011.
Fielder-Civil, who has “made peace” with his role, reminded listeners that Winehouse was a “very strong woman” with “agency.”
The 43-year-old noted, “That is in no way at all disrespecting her by saying that, but Amy did what she wanted to do. And even though the drinking had started to hurt her, she carried on.”
He admitted to introducing his former partner to heroin during their on-again, off-again relationship — but clarified she had allegedly “experimented” with cocaine with a previous partner.
“I never understood, do these people think that I forced Amy to do drugs? That’s just not what happened,” he insisted. “I’m not shirking responsibility, but this idea of daily facilitating — no. I wasn’t the dealer.”
Fielder-Civil, whose brother Freddy Civil died of a heroin overdose in 2021, pointed out, “I never blamed a person that gave me drugs for the first time. I’ve never tried to put that on anyone. Why would I?”
“I’m never, ever here to say, ‘Amy was bad,’” he added. “But I know Amy wouldn’t want me to still be sat here 20 years later saying it was all my fault. She’d be saying, ‘Get it right, babe. Come on. Tell them the truth.’”
Fielder-Civil concluded that the pair “were just young addicts at the time,” continuing, “We weren’t [addicts] to start with, then we were, and it could happen to anyone.”
He and Winehouse were married from 2007 to 2009, remaining in touch post-divorce while Fielder-Civil served time for burglary and possession of a firearm.
The former production assistant had been worried about his ex during his jail stint and claimed he “would’ve never in a million years have let her just sit and get drunk all day” had he not been behind bars.
“I had this massive fear, like an absolute control fear, [that] something is going to happen to her and I’m in here and I’m not able to do anything or help or even be there,” he remembered.
When Fielder-Civil found out Winehouse had passed — after calling her twice and then hearing the news from prison officers — the moment was his “worst nightmare.”
He recalled, “My first thought was … ‘It’s not true.’ My head was swimming straightaway. … I burst into tears.”
Fielder-Civil, who is now sober and in a healthy relationship, was unable to attend the Grammy winner’s funeral while imprisoned.
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