‘I didn’t like what I saw’

Victoria Beckham gets candid about her decades-long struggle with an eating disorder in her revealing new Netflix docuseries.

In the self-titled docuseries (out now), the fashion designer and former Spice Girl, 51, speaks openly about her struggle with her body image, sharing that it worsened after she gave birth to her first child and eldest son, Brooklyn, in 1999 and as she transitioned into motherhood.

“I really started to doubt myself and not like myself, you know, because I let it affect me,” Beckham says of the comments made about her weight in tabloids and on television. “I was just very critical of myself. I didn’t like what I saw. I’ve been everything from Porky Posh to Skinny Posh.”

She continues, “I had no control over what was being written about me, pictures that were being taken, and I suppose I wanted to control that, you know? I could control it with clothing, I could control my weight, and I was controlling it in an incredibly unhealthy way.”

Beckham says she became good “at lying” as a result of the disorder. “When you have an eating disorder, you become very good at lying,” she says. “And I was never honest about it with my parents. I never talked about it publicly. It really affects you when you’re being told, constantly, you’re not good enough.”

Beckham’s longtime husband, former soccer player David Beckham, is also featured in the docuseries and recalls of that early period, “My Victoria that I knew sits at home in a tracksuit, smiling, laughing, having a glass of wine. That started to go purely because of the criticism she was getting.”

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The three-part docuseries follows the fashion designer as she prepares for Paris Fashion Week, offering rare insight into her life. Beckham also revisits her time with the Spice Girls, revealing that the transition from the group, which disbanded in 2000, to a life as a wife and mother was “difficult.”

“When the Spice Girls finished, it was so extreme,” Beckham shares. “One minute I’m spreading word of girl power, and then the next minute I’m a wife in a flat in Manchester, not really having any friends, living a long way away from my family. And I found that transition really, really difficult.”

Beckham previously appeared on her husband’s own Netflix four-part docuseries, Beckham, in 2023, which chronicled his rise to sports stardom.

Victoria Beckham is streaming now on Netflix.

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